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[halians]

somewhere taair is feeling very stressed and he has no idea why

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weekend 0, sat!

[halians]

[ souvenir shop! we're at the ASS shop! more specifically, strohl is looking at the little keychains, rifling through the names. he's got one in hand with a look on his face that's grimly growing in dread. ]

Hey - do any of these names look familiar to you?

[ kaworu can see when he moves his hand just slightly that the keychain held in his hand is labeled Eupha. ]

Week 0, Friday

[peripheries]

[[Just kind of looking around for something, crouching occasionally, looking under the seats.

Notices Stohl and scoots away in case he's still stinky.]

[halians]

[ the good news is he is not stinky!! he's looking up at the screens with a frown on his face, hands on his hips.... though when he spots kaworu, he gives him a sup nod. ]

....What're you looking for?

week 0, sun

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[ i will not let tags keep us apart brigit crawls to

anyway here we are! i assume anders probably let kaworu into our house so strohl's been kind of keeping an eye on it - whenever he emerges, he gives him a little nod and waves him over to the full kitchen area, where he's doing something! ]

Did he fall back asleep? [ god i hope so ] Here, come here.

[peripheries]

[Nods quietly to answer the question but stays rooted to the spot for a bit at the request. He looks back at where Anders is sleeping, like if he moves too far away the man will disappear. But Kaworu figures Anders would perhaps want him to speak with the other people on his team. Slowly, he walks towards Strohl.]

week 1 monday

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[ sets this before getting obliterated on the network for my own sanity

anyway!!! it's time for the simulation room. kaworu gets to enter with the room already in progress to a simulation - he'll find himself standing in front of a frankly massive...boat? it's hard to tell exactly what it is, but it has legs, and it's rumbling softly like it's on, occasionally letting out a pshhh of steam. visible also on this massive machine is... a door with a small set of stairs, looking like, ostensibly, you could board it.

want to explore? ]

[peripheries]

[he does! But without really much direction because it's all so strange to him. He just goes up to the legs and puts his hand on them just to see what they feel like. Then, he goes and tries to climb inside.]

week 1 friday

[halians]

[ if kaworu was anything like strohl, he might not have even noticed anything else was going on in the simulation room when he realized anders was gone. for strohl, it was tunnel vision the moment he looked to his left and realized vi was gone.

he'd gotten up then, stormed out of the room, and made a noise - a scream, the guttural, feral scream of a person in abject grief, nearly a howl of fury and misery, more animal than person - followed moments later by the sound of shattering glass and sparks flying.

that was hours ago, now, though. he finds himself instead at kaworu's lounge. knocks on the door, late into the night, and says, ]

Nagisa. [ his voice is rough, sandpaper glass - the sound of someone who's been crying, gruff and short-syllabled, but persisting. ]

[peripheries]

[Kaworu had fallen asleep, head on Anders' shoulder, like he'd done many times before, always safe and comfortable. When he'd awoken on the cold ground, he'd decided to believe that Anders had simply woken up before him as was normal.

Except he knew deep down that this was not normal. So he'd gotten up and just ran away. Ran before anyone could call his name. Ran before his body even remember how to do things like create tears or scream. Ran to try to find a place where this wasn't true, where this wasn't happening, that Anders could just be in the next shop, in the next restaurant, in the next corner, in the distance.

Running away from the despair pooling inside his chest.

Hours later, he's not in his lounge, he's in the hallway when he sees Stohl, dry-eyed but oddly damp.]

Don't call me that.

[Only Shinji Ikari ever called him that. A boy he hadn't seen in over a year now. And yet it still feels like derisive comment.]

Week 1, Post-trial

[peripheries]

[Just kind of... leaning against the wall, feeling woozy. His nose is bleeding again.]

[halians]

[ baby. he comes to find kaworu pretty immediately - seeing the blood under his nose, he reroutes quick, comes back with a handkerchief.

just like before, except unlike with like sweet kind taair strohl is strohl, so he just kind of gets up in his space and puts the handkerchief under his nose. ] Here. Lean on me.

week 1, sunday!

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[ sunday, sunday. strohl's not - he's not surprised, that it was kaworu who was the executioner. watching the entire thing made him feel ill, made the conversation return to the one they had the night prior. it doesn't fix anything. it never makes anything better.

so, he came to help hulkenberg get him safely off to get healed, and since then has stuck nearby - once he's up and about, he quietly sets down a water bottle near him. water bottle for the water bottle. ]

Drink. [ he says, with no room for argument - voice rough with exhaustion. he's got a change of clothes under his arm, too. all that blood. ]

[peripheries]

[he drinks. It kind of hurts but he doesn't want to add to anyone's stress today. He's caused enough problems.

He sighs.]

You were right. I just feel numb.

week 2, thursday

[halians]

[ okay

kaworu despite his struggling is getting deposited in for healing. this poor guy - he has had so much recently, and to see him come back with those lines, those features, it was a lot. he's let kaworu have privacy and a bit of time to recover, just like he had on sunday, but...

... well, as expected, it's not like he's far away. almost like he's been standing guard.

he comes in once the stream of wellwishers has stopped, and quietly leans on the door. ]

Kaworu. [ soft. ] Do you want a break from the others? How're you feeling?

[peripheries]

Sleepy. Sore.

[He's under sooo many blankets and has one of those forehead cooling patches on. Actually... people might have stuck two on him for safe keeping.

He's obviously quite injured but he doesn't at least seem to be struggling so much with his mental state.]

Week 3, Tuesday

[peripheries]

[Kaworu is resting in the Meowsandry llounge on one of the couches, hands behind his head and one leg crossed over the other. Lady is curled up at his side. His wounds seem to be healing, now down to just a few bandages and he no longer is wearing fever patches.

If he were asleep, perhaps this could have been avoided, but instead a memory that is not yours, full of harsh and industrial spaces, begins to run through your mind.]

[halians]

[ why is everything so insane today. okay. first of all he snaps a picture of this to send to anders, because it's sweet, but - well, then the wind blows, and he's tossed in to kaworu's memories.

there's - there's a lot happening here. the boy, who kaworu so desperately wanted to be friends with at the beginning. the discussion of people and humanity with the strange, shadowy figures. the rebirth of adam, or something like it. the heavy implication of destruction, and the look on kaworu's face at the end.

it's heartbreaking, really. he takes a beat from where he's standing. looks down at kaworu on the couch, at sweet lady, and exhales out, rubs a hand on over his own face. he's not sure if he's even awake or not to have experienced that - if kaworu glances up at him, he'll see his expression is heavy, before he reaches over to adjust one of his pillows from behind him. ]

Bloody hell. [ said very softly. it's hard to say i hope it got better when the poor kid's been through two rounds of murdergame and euchronia, but... well. it solidifies that feeling of one of my own, something that has been present for some time now, even further. ]

Week 3, Friday

[peripheries]

[Just flopped on his back in the butterfly garden, watching Lady chase them and prowl through the grass like a natural predator.]

[halians]

[ yesterday happened too much this week has happened too much i AM HERE NOW

lady... you're so tough. strohl's not really supposed to be out and about too much today - still, he's taking a walk to clear his head, so when he spots kaworu, it seems like a good time to stop. with a bit of a grunt, he eases himself down to sit next to him and watch. ]

Must be nice to be a cat.

week 3, sat

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[ hrhrhrhghhg. strohl's doing

bad! he's doing bad, after all of that, frustrated and still too hurt to do much of anything about it really, too pissed off at this damn system and nowhere to vent it. so. we're in the meow lounge now and kaworu can join him while he like. angrily shucks ears of corn? There are so many ears of corn in this house it's a nightmare. ]

Suppose that means Roxana wasn't innocent last week after all.

[peripheries]

[Kaworu isn't doing poorly but he seems a little... shellshocked. Like he can't quite understand how everything suddenly ended up this way. He's curled up under a blanket with Lady on his lap.]

Did you think she was?

Week 4, Monday

[peripheries]

[IN HELL! EXPLORING.

Currently in subnautica. When he sees Strohl, he grabs him by the arm and starts pulling him!]

Hey! Strohl! There Is An Ariticial Beach Over There! Come On! Let's Go See! Right Now! It's Almost Like A Real One!

[He says all of this extremely fast and with way too much emphasis on every word.]

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[ RHFKLWE STOP KAWORU YOU'RE SO CUTE!!! he laughs as this is happening and he's getting yanked along. ]

Whoa - whoa whoa whoa, slow down! Alright, alright!

[ what did you drink you goober. also he winces a little when he takes him by the arm but it's not a lot just like. ow. ] Artificial beach?

Week 5, Monday

[peripheries]

[In Meowsandry Lounge, Lady curled on his chest, one hand over his stomach and groaning.

HE MADE A HUGE MISTAKE.]

[halians]

[ it is funny you think im allowed in here w/o a visitor's pass atm but thats okay

he's making tea. it smells nice! good for the stomach...he's intimately familiar... but he will come bring it over the side of the couch, careful not to disturb lady besides a quick scratch behind the ear, and set it in his line of sight. ]

Have we learned a lesson...?

Week 6, Sunday

[peripheries]

[In Meowsandry Lounge, curled up on the couch with Lady, petting her gently, because she is what Kaworu has in place of therapy. And she always seems to love him, even if he's done wrong by other people.]

[halians]

[ HELP THIS STARTER...

strohl's coming to set a plate of food down on the table near him - and a little dish full of fish pieces for lady too. ]

....Reeve for your thoughts? [ as he comes to plop down on the floor by him on the couch. what're you thinking about. ]