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[halians]

somewhere taair is feeling very stressed and he has no idea why

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[halians]

[ he nods, listening along... and after a thoughtful moment of his own, responds with open vulnerability. ]

... I've struggled often with the same question, in our time here. I wrote Anders of it when we were separated, even, after I learned what her highness had done. He told me how difficult it can be to balance things, in terms of "justice" and "mortality", and how the heart of a man doesn't always align with the principles of what is just or not.

[ ... ]

This place is a poor metric for what matters and what doesn't, because the system is unjust to begin with. I don't know if you all dealt with killers who were not themselves, or not, in the Heavens. Here...it's hard, to picture some of those who have been forced to act acting. I wouldn't have attacked anyone, had I been given the choice, but my hand was taken from me. Compare that to someone like Asuka.

...I think the truth does matter - I think putting it out there matters. I think when people act in ways that are cruel and selfish, those things should be put to the light. There are people here I've yet to forgive, and I likely never will. [ there's one person in particular who he still really just. kind of detests, but he doesn't say it now, keeping that quietly to himself. ] But... in the end, we choose what we can live with. Whatever that might mean.

[peripheries]

I keep asking him those questions and he always answers for me and yet it never feels like enough. Even though I understand it in my mind, I cannot seem to accept in my heart that both of those things can be true.

[He sighs.]

I know. I know many are not acting on their own will. Which makes it even more difficult to know what to do. It's why this week, I did not want to vote for Rupert and see him punished. But I condemned Dante to a worse fate.

[WHO STROHL. SPILL DEETS. Still, he looks over at him wide-eyed.]

I think I am going to struggle to live with this.