...yeah. [ quiet, for a moment, and looking out at the flight deck. ]
Sure you've probably noticed: I've got a hell of a temper. It used to be worse. [ a lot worse. the strohl at the resort, even, is a marked difference from where he is now. ] I've lost it in moments where I shouldn't have, and moments where I should. Nearly ruined parts of our plans because of it.
Not that this is anything ruinous. [ punching rupert that is because that's fair. ] Just - I know how it feels. It could've easily been me, the week it was Vi.
[ he hums and nods, because ace knows a thing or two about having a temper, but: ]
Throughout this entire thing, all he's done is try to keep a decent hold on his emotions. If he'd found out any other way, maybe it wouldn't have happened like that, but Rupert's condition can't have made it easy.
...He's not doing himself any favours in not being punchable, is he. [ He's being an arse. ] It's uncanny.
[ and unsettling. ]
Hate that we had to even narrow in on Jonas for a second. I'm sure that didn't help - it'd fray my nerves half to death, too. [ but evidence was so confusing and we are all stupid ] Ruffled my feathers to watch people even insinuate I'd attacked Maya when I was dead and gone.
For the record, I didn't tell him anything or see him that night - and when I volunteered for it, I didn't expect the damn phone call that week, either.
[ that makes him snort, and he rubs the back of his own neck. ]
Please, I sooner would've killed him myself...
[ he also wouldn't have stood for any of that MAYA?? RYO??? YOU NUTJOB??? anyway it's fine. yes. back to the subject. ]
Yeah. [ ... ] It was the same with her highness. Having their agency stolen from them like that burns me to my core. Burns all of us. And there's no target for it short of the person who caused the harm. God knows I get it.
...Did you know, she asked me to kill her, a few weeks ago? The same week I was - you know.
Someone put the idea into her head that she could offer herself up as a sacrifice to me, then I could bring Vi back with the item, as if either of us would ever be alright with that.
... I sort of ripped her a new one about it, [ they got into a whole ass shouting match actually but it's fine it was cathartic ] but... things were better, after that, I think. For as short as it lasted.
It's like you said - can't control people's feelings about it, one way or another. Place puts us in a pressure cooker on purpose, and the only thing that even begins to fix it is time, which we've none of.
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[ he says, wincing a little - reaching up to touch under his own eye. ]
I don't blame him: we've a lot in common in a lot of ways.
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You and Jonas?
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...yeah. [ quiet, for a moment, and looking out at the flight deck. ]
Sure you've probably noticed: I've got a hell of a temper. It used to be worse. [ a lot worse. the strohl at the resort, even, is a marked difference from where he is now. ] I've lost it in moments where I shouldn't have, and moments where I should. Nearly ruined parts of our plans because of it.
Not that this is anything ruinous. [ punching rupert that is because that's fair. ] Just - I know how it feels. It could've easily been me, the week it was Vi.
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Throughout this entire thing, all he's done is try to keep a decent hold on his emotions. If he'd found out any other way, maybe it wouldn't have happened like that, but Rupert's condition can't have made it easy.
[ Being Possessed means Being An Asshole. ]
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...He's not doing himself any favours in not being punchable, is he. [ He's being an arse. ] It's uncanny.
[ and unsettling. ]
Hate that we had to even narrow in on Jonas for a second. I'm sure that didn't help - it'd fray my nerves half to death, too. [ but evidence was so confusing and we are all stupid ] Ruffled my feathers to watch people even insinuate I'd attacked Maya when I was dead and gone.
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[ possessed rupert, he means. anyway; ]
Even knowing you'd told Ryo to frame you? [ a little dry. he'll never let it go jack. ]
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For the record, I didn't tell him anything or see him that night - and when I volunteered for it, I didn't expect the damn phone call that week, either.
I had no bloody clue he was going to attack her.
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[ he will still go why would you give this permission to our local psychopath forever ok. anyway back to the subject at hand; ]
He was possessed, so it's not his fault, but you can't control people's feelings over it. Can't even control Rupert's own.
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Please, I sooner would've killed him myself...
[ he also wouldn't have stood for any of that MAYA?? RYO??? YOU NUTJOB??? anyway it's fine. yes. back to the subject. ]
Yeah. [ ... ] It was the same with her highness. Having their agency stolen from them like that burns me to my core. Burns all of us. And there's no target for it short of the person who caused the harm. God knows I get it.
...Did you know, she asked me to kill her, a few weeks ago? The same week I was - you know.
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[ concerned. she ended up dying ANYWAY but like ]
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... I sort of ripped her a new one about it, [ they got into a whole ass shouting match actually but it's fine it was cathartic ] but... things were better, after that, I think. For as short as it lasted.
It's like you said - can't control people's feelings about it, one way or another. Place puts us in a pressure cooker on purpose, and the only thing that even begins to fix it is time, which we've none of.
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[ shaking his head ]
Just... give 'em a couple of days. They'll calm down once everyone's back.