We're working on it. [ in the process of ass kicking, at least. unfortunately, now he and hulkenberg are here! there's a beat, though, and he exhales out a laugh, running his hand through his hair, good natured. ]
Too right, though. [ god he'd love to go warrior and just destroy this place it'd be awesome. ] This place puts limits down for a reason - we'd be able to knock it all down if we could just figure out how to lift them in time.
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It was something you did there - that still matters. Don't lose sight of that. Whether you can access the actual power or not, being able to harness those things'll - fear, anxiety, anger - it'll still help you, in the end.
[ he'd said much of the same when wis'adel was trying to accuse him of projecting onto her. i have no shame in admitting that I'm afraid. for the future, the present, and all those that we strive for. It's a part of me as much as anything else is. ]
Then good luck. Someone doing that deserves to have their teeth punched in.
[ not necessarily as a matter of justice, just for being a huge dick. ]
Maybe if they'd at least given us something else to work with. [ once again, he reaches for his psych, willing it to at least turn him invisible, prove it's still there, and of course... nothing. ] They knew we'd be angry, and they know we'd fight back, if we could. But this is how these stupid things work.
[ as for anger. he still looks a little unsure. it's always been his weak point; turning it into a strength still seems... odd. but maybe that's just because he's from a world where that shouldn't even be possible. ]
[ he full out snorts at the first part because my god YEAH he does. louis deserves it so bad it's not even funny. he is just such a villain's villain. if evil... why sexy though... ]
Yeah. Course, right? [ ugh. the powers thing. ugh, the shitty auditors. ] I was able to at least... I could use it, a bit, at the last place. Couldn't take on the full transformation, but I'd not had my sword then, so I was able to use my archetype's. We had to find a way to break the machine, but once we did, our powers were returned to us proper. My hope's that we'll be able to do that again. Just have to find the key to it.
[ and play along until then, which is the part that sucks the most, but it's not something he's unfamiliar with.
though strohl just makes a quiet noise in agreement at the end, he studies kazuki for a long moment. there's nothing judgemental or anything - he's just looking. seeing a reflection of an angry young man, seven years ago, for a moment in time. ]
...It's definitely not a cure-all, I'll tell you that much. Something I've had to work at before and after, but - becoming aware of it did something for me, too.
I don't always like the person that I am when I lose my temper. Sometimes, it's right. Sometimes, I could muck things up beyond all recognition because I couldn't keep my mouth closed. But... it's part of what powers me forward. Complacency begets tyranny. Lord knows I'll never, ever, fall down that particular road.
[ for better or for worse - he might be angry and impassioned, he might blow his top or say something too smart-mouthed to the wrong person, but he'll never just lay down and take it, and that's something he can be proud of. ]
Nothing like that happened for us... We had our psychs, and that's it. Anyone's abilities only came back after the Game ended. Might be easier if all of you could get your powers back, though.
[ how convenient to not be a normie. ]
...I wouldn't say I've ever been complacent, and I've always had a temper. I almost fucked up my team because of it. [ something he'll always feel awful for, he thinks. ] It's still a little hard imagining that it could be a good thing, after that. But if it means they'll be safe, that's all I need to know.
[ there's a bit of a smile, there - on being complacent, because, yeah. they're both warriors. there's no way either of them could be, he thinks. the flip side of anger is passion. you don't sit down and take it when there's something you could do to set things right.
and - ooh, ooh does he understand that feeling, too. empathetic - he smiles a little, lopsided. ] ... Yeah. I've been there, too. Worst part is the after, when you come back down a notch. Have to look at all the impacts you had when you didn't have your head on straight.
I think what I've had to come to terms with is that it can be both. A good thing and a bad one. Answer's not always black and white, in the end. Nothing ever is.
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We're working on it. [ in the process of ass kicking, at least. unfortunately, now he and hulkenberg are here! there's a beat, though, and he exhales out a laugh, running his hand through his hair, good natured. ]
Too right, though. [ god he'd love to go warrior and just destroy this place it'd be awesome. ] This place puts limits down for a reason - we'd be able to knock it all down if we could just figure out how to lift them in time.
[ ... ]
It was something you did there - that still matters. Don't lose sight of that. Whether you can access the actual power or not, being able to harness those things'll - fear, anxiety, anger - it'll still help you, in the end.
[ he'd said much of the same when wis'adel was trying to accuse him of projecting onto her. i have no shame in admitting that I'm afraid. for the future, the present, and all those that we strive for. It's a part of me as much as anything else is. ]
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[ not necessarily as a matter of justice, just for being a huge dick. ]
Maybe if they'd at least given us something else to work with. [ once again, he reaches for his psych, willing it to at least turn him invisible, prove it's still there, and of course... nothing. ] They knew we'd be angry, and they know we'd fight back, if we could. But this is how these stupid things work.
[ as for anger. he still looks a little unsure. it's always been his weak point; turning it into a strength still seems... odd. but maybe that's just because he's from a world where that shouldn't even be possible. ]
...I guess we'll see what happens.
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Yeah. Course, right? [ ugh. the powers thing. ugh, the shitty auditors. ] I was able to at least... I could use it, a bit, at the last place. Couldn't take on the full transformation, but I'd not had my sword then, so I was able to use my archetype's. We had to find a way to break the machine, but once we did, our powers were returned to us proper. My hope's that we'll be able to do that again. Just have to find the key to it.
[ and play along until then, which is the part that sucks the most, but it's not something he's unfamiliar with.
though strohl just makes a quiet noise in agreement at the end, he studies kazuki for a long moment. there's nothing judgemental or anything - he's just looking. seeing a reflection of an angry young man, seven years ago, for a moment in time. ]
...It's definitely not a cure-all, I'll tell you that much. Something I've had to work at before and after, but - becoming aware of it did something for me, too.
I don't always like the person that I am when I lose my temper. Sometimes, it's right. Sometimes, I could muck things up beyond all recognition because I couldn't keep my mouth closed. But... it's part of what powers me forward. Complacency begets tyranny. Lord knows I'll never, ever, fall down that particular road.
[ for better or for worse - he might be angry and impassioned, he might blow his top or say something too smart-mouthed to the wrong person, but he'll never just lay down and take it, and that's something he can be proud of. ]
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Nothing like that happened for us... We had our psychs, and that's it. Anyone's abilities only came back after the Game ended. Might be easier if all of you could get your powers back, though.
[ how convenient to not be a normie. ]
...I wouldn't say I've ever been complacent, and I've always had a temper. I almost fucked up my team because of it. [ something he'll always feel awful for, he thinks. ] It's still a little hard imagining that it could be a good thing, after that. But if it means they'll be safe, that's all I need to know.
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[ there's a bit of a smile, there - on being complacent, because, yeah. they're both warriors. there's no way either of them could be, he thinks. the flip side of anger is passion. you don't sit down and take it when there's something you could do to set things right.
and - ooh, ooh does he understand that feeling, too. empathetic - he smiles a little, lopsided. ] ... Yeah. I've been there, too. Worst part is the after, when you come back down a notch. Have to look at all the impacts you had when you didn't have your head on straight.
I think what I've had to come to terms with is that it can be both. A good thing and a bad one. Answer's not always black and white, in the end. Nothing ever is.
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[ happens to him a lot. ]
It’d be a lot easier if it was black and white.