[ he full out snorts at the first part because my god YEAH he does. louis deserves it so bad it's not even funny. he is just such a villain's villain. if evil... why sexy though... ]
Yeah. Course, right? [ ugh. the powers thing. ugh, the shitty auditors. ] I was able to at least... I could use it, a bit, at the last place. Couldn't take on the full transformation, but I'd not had my sword then, so I was able to use my archetype's. We had to find a way to break the machine, but once we did, our powers were returned to us proper. My hope's that we'll be able to do that again. Just have to find the key to it.
[ and play along until then, which is the part that sucks the most, but it's not something he's unfamiliar with.
though strohl just makes a quiet noise in agreement at the end, he studies kazuki for a long moment. there's nothing judgemental or anything - he's just looking. seeing a reflection of an angry young man, seven years ago, for a moment in time. ]
...It's definitely not a cure-all, I'll tell you that much. Something I've had to work at before and after, but - becoming aware of it did something for me, too.
I don't always like the person that I am when I lose my temper. Sometimes, it's right. Sometimes, I could muck things up beyond all recognition because I couldn't keep my mouth closed. But... it's part of what powers me forward. Complacency begets tyranny. Lord knows I'll never, ever, fall down that particular road.
[ for better or for worse - he might be angry and impassioned, he might blow his top or say something too smart-mouthed to the wrong person, but he'll never just lay down and take it, and that's something he can be proud of. ]
Nothing like that happened for us... We had our psychs, and that's it. Anyone's abilities only came back after the Game ended. Might be easier if all of you could get your powers back, though.
[ how convenient to not be a normie. ]
...I wouldn't say I've ever been complacent, and I've always had a temper. I almost fucked up my team because of it. [ something he'll always feel awful for, he thinks. ] It's still a little hard imagining that it could be a good thing, after that. But if it means they'll be safe, that's all I need to know.
[ there's a bit of a smile, there - on being complacent, because, yeah. they're both warriors. there's no way either of them could be, he thinks. the flip side of anger is passion. you don't sit down and take it when there's something you could do to set things right.
and - ooh, ooh does he understand that feeling, too. empathetic - he smiles a little, lopsided. ] ... Yeah. I've been there, too. Worst part is the after, when you come back down a notch. Have to look at all the impacts you had when you didn't have your head on straight.
I think what I've had to come to terms with is that it can be both. A good thing and a bad one. Answer's not always black and white, in the end. Nothing ever is.
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Yeah. Course, right? [ ugh. the powers thing. ugh, the shitty auditors. ] I was able to at least... I could use it, a bit, at the last place. Couldn't take on the full transformation, but I'd not had my sword then, so I was able to use my archetype's. We had to find a way to break the machine, but once we did, our powers were returned to us proper. My hope's that we'll be able to do that again. Just have to find the key to it.
[ and play along until then, which is the part that sucks the most, but it's not something he's unfamiliar with.
though strohl just makes a quiet noise in agreement at the end, he studies kazuki for a long moment. there's nothing judgemental or anything - he's just looking. seeing a reflection of an angry young man, seven years ago, for a moment in time. ]
...It's definitely not a cure-all, I'll tell you that much. Something I've had to work at before and after, but - becoming aware of it did something for me, too.
I don't always like the person that I am when I lose my temper. Sometimes, it's right. Sometimes, I could muck things up beyond all recognition because I couldn't keep my mouth closed. But... it's part of what powers me forward. Complacency begets tyranny. Lord knows I'll never, ever, fall down that particular road.
[ for better or for worse - he might be angry and impassioned, he might blow his top or say something too smart-mouthed to the wrong person, but he'll never just lay down and take it, and that's something he can be proud of. ]
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Nothing like that happened for us... We had our psychs, and that's it. Anyone's abilities only came back after the Game ended. Might be easier if all of you could get your powers back, though.
[ how convenient to not be a normie. ]
...I wouldn't say I've ever been complacent, and I've always had a temper. I almost fucked up my team because of it. [ something he'll always feel awful for, he thinks. ] It's still a little hard imagining that it could be a good thing, after that. But if it means they'll be safe, that's all I need to know.
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[ there's a bit of a smile, there - on being complacent, because, yeah. they're both warriors. there's no way either of them could be, he thinks. the flip side of anger is passion. you don't sit down and take it when there's something you could do to set things right.
and - ooh, ooh does he understand that feeling, too. empathetic - he smiles a little, lopsided. ] ... Yeah. I've been there, too. Worst part is the after, when you come back down a notch. Have to look at all the impacts you had when you didn't have your head on straight.
I think what I've had to come to terms with is that it can be both. A good thing and a bad one. Answer's not always black and white, in the end. Nothing ever is.
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[ happens to him a lot. ]
It’d be a lot easier if it was black and white.