[ oh that'sn ot good. he knows enough to know that much - he wipes away any more tears, then just kind of shifts to join him on the bed, gingerly. strong shoulder to lean on, if he needs it. ]
Was it... reliving something? Or something else entirely? [ softer. ] Take all the time you need.
I hadn't left. I'd been there... long enough for all three of these rounds. Having to do it the entire time.
[he trusts strohl can guess what it means in this context.]
And the last time - it was blurred together, that place and the hotel. There were three people there like family to me, and I had to pick which of them to...
[ he's perfectly happy to let that happen - despite his injuries, he can always carry, can always help.
as rupert talks, it brings back that strange woman at the very end, the one who looked at jacopo. you always choose wrong. it comes back to this, doesn't it? to choices. to cruel, unfathomable choices brought about by cruel systems. it burns up strohl, makes him scowl the minute he realises what "it" had to be. ]
Of course. [ half spit out of his mouth. angry. righteous, as always, furious that rupert had to be put through it. ] Place can't just let sleeping dogs lie, can it? Has to make the worst of the worst?
[ rupert deserves better and strohl will fight god about it ] 'm sorry. I know it doesn't make up for anything, but - still.
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Was it... reliving something? Or something else entirely? [ softer. ] Take all the time you need.
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I hadn't left. I'd been there... long enough for all three of these rounds. Having to do it the entire time.
[he trusts strohl can guess what it means in this context.]
And the last time - it was blurred together, that place and the hotel. There were three people there like family to me, and I had to pick which of them to...
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as rupert talks, it brings back that strange woman at the very end, the one who looked at jacopo. you always choose wrong. it comes back to this, doesn't it? to choices. to cruel, unfathomable choices brought about by cruel systems. it burns up strohl, makes him scowl the minute he realises what "it" had to be. ]
Of course. [ half spit out of his mouth. angry. righteous, as always, furious that rupert had to be put through it. ] Place can't just let sleeping dogs lie, can it? Has to make the worst of the worst?
[ rupert deserves better and strohl will fight god about it ] 'm sorry. I know it doesn't make up for anything, but - still.
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[genuinely, even if it doesn't change what happened. after a moment:]
What about you?