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[halians]

[ he lifts his hand - and reaches out, then ruffles her hair like an annoying big brother. annoying ]

Good. [ and it's genuine. ]

All that you've said - of cycles, of eternity, time loops. If there was a ever a time that things are different, it's right now, isn't it? So you may as well keep taking the chance to act different, too.

[bxkautx]

[ nyeh. swats him away and steps back. she also kind of - frowns at his words, but it's hard to place what exactly she's displeased with there. ]

... Is this different? Everyone here has been through this before.

[halians]

[ alex use your words

anyway he looks thoughtful about this... it's not the first time they've talked about it, so ]

Conditions are different. People are different. Maybe the core idea's the same, but it's not, either.

[bxkautx]

But it's the same game. Monopoly's still Monopoly no matter which piece you're playing as or how the turns get played.

[halians]

[ what the fuck is monopoly

anyway ] Do you actually believe that to be true? Or do you just not want to believe that it could be different?

[bxkautx]

I want to believe things could be different, sure. Actually believe... not so much.

[halians]

Easier not to be disappointed that way. Sure, makes sense.

[ that makes sense too, though - could not be him. ]

... Nothing ever changes if we don't make it change. You've got the chance not to be a passive observer, here. Yeah?

[bxkautx]

... Do you think that was my problem? Being passive?

[halians]

Based on what I saw - not really, no, but I can't imagine being trapped is a great feeling.

[ raising both eyebrows like tell me... explain.... ]

[bxkautx]

[ good answer. but she has explained all she really feels like... sorry she's like this... ]

It's not. There are good days, inside the cage. But it's a cage. And you can kind of—see through the bars, you know?

[halians]

[ hrmmm.... ]

Still feel that way now? Like you're looking through the bars.

[bxkautx]

I'm like a deity, so not really. I mean, sure I can't really leave Hell most of the time and I'm locked out of Heaven, but...

[ SO. YES??? ]

[halians]

Bit of a small fry, for a deity...

[ RUDE again though just giving shit ]

I meant here, you know.

[bxkautx]

I'm like... average...?

[ BUT SHE FROWNS AT THE COMMENT ANYWAY. ]

Oh. Well obviously anyone would see being kidnapped to a murder airport as a cage, right? I can't be weird for that.

[halians]

Mm.

[ like, he doesn't disagree necessarily, he fuckin hates this place. ]

... Suppose it's just comparative, in the end. I don't know - sure, you're stuck here, but it seems like you've got more freedom than you had before, even if in its increments. At least as far as I can tell.

[bxkautx]

I don't consider having my powers taken away and having... [ actually she can't explain the second thing so she just trails off and shakes her head. ]

It's just not very freeing.